I have always worried about everything too much. Being the
worry wart that I am, I would just stress myself out even more than I already
was by worrying about things. I’ve always been a “what if” kind of person.
Thinking about things far into the future was common, but things often didn’t turn
out the way I thought they would. I needed something to stop me from worrying.
Lately, I’ve definitely been worrying about things less. I’m
finally feeling settled in at college and feeling okay about my studies. I know
my place on the baseball team and I’m working hard to show everyone why the coach
put me there. But I still have my moments where I am completely stressed and don’t
know how to stop worrying about everything going on. Today was one of those
days.
I don’t know why professors feel the need to swamp us with
homework right before we leave for Thanksgiving break, or any break, but they
do. I figured that since I had no classes today I would work on my homework and
be relaxed and done by now. That is not the case. This is my break time. I have
a research paper due tomorrow and an online blog to write about a reading for
the same class, I have a test tomorrow in what is supposed to be my easiest
class but it isn’t seeming that way anymore, I have a history essay that I need
to start because I need to bring my grade up in that class, and to top it all
off I have a lecture transcription to do for OT because I’m stupid and did bad
on the first test. I couldn’t help worrying about how if my GPA isn’t high
enough I’ll lose my scholarship. Stress level=too high.
Then I talked to someone that turned my whole mind set
around, my dad. Somehow he always knows when I’m upset. Somehow he always knows
the right thing to say. He calmed me down just by talking to him through email
for a half an hour. He told me not to worry, to take a break and listen to
music, and that we would worry about my scholarship later if we had to. It was
honestly all I needed to hear.
After that I looked at my dry erase board on my wall for
some reason. A friend had led me to the Bible when I was stressed not too long
ago and I had printed out Luke 12:25-26 and put it there to remind me not to
worry. Luke 12:25-26 says this “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to
his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about
the rest?” This just seems to resonate with me and makes me realize that
worrying doesn’t help anything, it makes it worse.
With that being said, it’s normal to worry about things
sometimes. When you do worry about things, take a break from whatever it is you’re
doing. Remember that worrying isn’t getting anything done faster, it’s probably
making it take longer. Go listen to music for 20 minutes and just relax. Talk
to someone that will make you happy. Do anything to get your mind off of it for
a little while.
You always need to remember that worrying makes things
worse. It’s better to just deal with things as they come to you. It may be cliché,
but you need to “Cross that bridge when you come to it”. If you’re always
worrying about the future, you aren’t fully living in the present. And the
present is awesome, so you’re missing out.
-Eric Proulx
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